The Unanswered 'Why'

Why do bad things happen to good people?

Why does a kind, loving, and generous person like my Mom have Alzheimer's?

Why, of all people, did it happen to her?

What did she do to deserve this?

Questions like these, they bear no reply, for they can't ever be answered. Where we seek solutions, we are left with a growing sense of helplessness.

As much I know this, as much I try and absorb this realization, I still find the "Why" of my Mom's reality, my reality, still causes me to pause.

It still causes me to wonder, to ask the universe/higher being for a sign, to search the stars for something, anything.

It still causes me to pause in the quiet. In the dark. In the space of solitude. Just me sitting alone with my thoughts. The simple yet powerful question churning in my head, permeating throughout my heart and soul.

But each time, I am met with silence.

For, the truth is, I will never know. I will have to live with that as my answer, for the rest of my days.

As I face this blank space, I have two options: To ruminate on this question forever, allowing it to control me, to weigh me down. Or, to put one foot in front of the other, to face each day with a tender yet grateful heart.

As much as I want to be stuck in the "Why", I have chosen the latter option.

In this blank space, I believe the universe/higher being has provided me an opportunity to carry my Mom's light into the world. To assume the noble responsibility of bearing her vibrant, loving legacy and sharing it with all who cross my path. For, in doing so, they will know and remember my beautiful Mom through knowing me.

Therein lies my truth. Therein lies the long-lost answer to my question. Therein lies the way I will live out the rest of my days.

With my dear, precious Mom residing in my heart, the echoes of her lessons, her words, her love, leading me along the path of life.

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